Emotions. Sometimes I hate them. Without getting into detail, I have recently let my emotions, in this case frustration and anger, get the best of me. I have done something, repeatedly no less, even though I knew it was childish and immature. I guess you could also through in my bad attitude and my procrastination into my pile of imperfections, since I knew it was wrong and would have consequences, but I literally said, "Ahh, I will deal with the consequences when they arise!" HOW IDIOTIC IS THAT?!
Without a doubt, I am my own worst critic. My sense of guilt and embarrassment always punishes me much harsher than most would: yet even knowing this, I do things anyway. What I did, on the grand seem, is really not much at all, but that doesn't change the fact that it was still wrong, and I knew it. It made other people upset, and that is also wrong.
I guess the first step to correcting a problem is an acknowledgment of the problem, but that is not always enough, particularly when there is a pattern of negative behavior. I am aware that of this flaw in my character, and I do try to correct it. I guess I need to try harder. :sad7:
If it makes you feel better, I make an **** of myself on a consistant minute to minute basis. I have to put a chain on my mouth I think, because despite the fact I know what I'm saying will hurt the person I'm talking to I almost always say it anyway, and then for the rest of the day I feel like a ****. I honestly don't know why I still have friends.
You aren't alone GoingNova! I swear, if I could take myself out into a back alley somewhere and beat the living snot out of myself, I would. But, then again...that probably wouldn't help anything. One of these days I'll start learning from my mistakes I'm sure, or at least I would hope.
Procrastination is my worst. Second would probably be how I tend to be naive, although since I can recognize it now it isn't quite as bad. Being so strict with myself when it comes to being 'responsible' can really suck too. I've accomplished a fair bit by now I'd say, but just makes me wonder what I've missed out on in the process. On the relationship side of the house (or current lack of perhaps) I have to wonder if my standards are too high. Considering some of the women I've gone out with I know a lot of guys who'd probably say they're too low but that's not the case. I guess I'm not willing to settle for 'she'll do' or risk being miserable with just anyone. If I'm going to be miserable the rest of my life I'd rather it be with someone I'm happy with. Nice contradiction eh?
Y'know, these kinds of posts make ya realize just how screwed up ya are. hehe
I bash myself constantly on how gullible I am. I have a tendency to believe everything people say to me and more often than not I find that I have been played. As for procrastinating that is my middle name!
We all have flaws...no one's perfect. I repeatedly make an idiot of myself every single day...no matter what anyone thinks. If we didn't have emotions we wouldn't have anything really in life to be happy about, sad about angry...we'd jsut be here...living then dying...
But yes if I could I would do what damm said and go beat the crap out of myself for some of the things I've done.
But hey, I've noticed that in life we can make really small mistakes but over the majority mnost people's lifes are fantastic things. So it doesn't matter Nova!!!
We all make mistakes no one's perfect *big hugs all around*
I bash myself constantly on how gullible I am. I have a tendency to believe everything people say to me and more often than not I find that I have been played. As for procrastinating that is my middle name!
Too cute, last night after the lobster party I may have believed you, however, today I am suffering from the aftermath of the "after the party" party! Sometime between 3AM and 4:5 AM if you had approached me for the fifty you probably would have been $50 richer this PM! LOL Guess it's time to retire for the evening! I have been going since 7AM Thursday. Not much for catching Z Z Z es HA ha!
procrastination=me. i have work that has to get in certain days at 6, i have classes from 11-5 so when do i do it? at 5. i know that i should do it the day before, but i don't and i work from 8-10 and from 10-11 i play on the net. god, i need 2 learn something. u would think that being a soph in college would tell me that i have 2 get on the ball, but no. while every1 else is doing work, i am playing.
i need a life
Nova, if I had a dollar for every time I found myself in need of the same post that you just made, I'd be rich. I'm WAY too hard on myself, and I have brought the act of procrastination to a lovely art form. I beat myself up a couple of times a week for SOMETHING -
I have been kicking myself in the **** for days because I foolishly squandered megabucks over the years on that evil cigarette. Wish I had the money I spent on smokes. I would fly 4 of my friends out of the eye of the storm in Houston.
I'll quit smoking tomorrow (maybe) and perhaps fly down over the Christmas holiday. Or maybe I'll buy Lotto tickets LOL
