I am so sorry for the heartbreak and emptiness you are feeling right now. I am one of eight kids too. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. It is hard when someone is taken from our lives so suddenly and we do not have an opportunity to say goodbye. Just think of all the great times you had together. That is what will pull you through. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.
I'm online for the first time in a couple days and I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I'm at work on my lunch crying quietly trying not to attract attention.
If there is anything you need your CW family is here for you, please reach out if needed.