This is weird but I'm going to explain it my way.
I feel like ever since I left secondary school - a structured place where you are told what to do where to go how to do it etc. - I've been a tiny bit lost and scared. The past two years I've been confused as I've had all these choices and options but I had to make them quick, and I failed subjects quickly because I lost interest and I started getting upset because I was so lost and felt like such a failure. When I left sixth form for the last time and decided to get a job I imagined myself being a cleaner for McDonald's for the rest of my life or something like that. All of a sudden I finally got a job (well, apprenticeship) and I know it's silly but I don't feel lost anymore. So when I'm going on and on about how I've gotten a new job to my friends I really don't care if they think I'm annoying because I feel like I can relax more.
I also feel like a chocolate brownie would be perfect before bed.