Thanks everyone. I am doing my best to hold it all together through this and do appreciate all of your hugs and support. I know I am doing the right thing not only for me but DS as well.
I am also learning that my lawyer is just about the best around(already knew that just seeing it now firsthand). He has finally hired his lawyer and now they are talking. I feel better knowing this can move forward and the sooner its over the better.
I have ventured out a bit this past weekend and spoken to some local people. I have been a bit surprised by the support I am getting from the people I was most worried about. The general comments seem to be "I don't know how you did it this long" & "we all know what he is like - you take what he says with an ounce of salt because only part is ever true". It hurt to know others thought that so long before I finally had enough.
Everyone keeps telling me there is a light at the end of this long hard tunnel and I hope they are right. I know after this is all done I will be able to go on and build what I want in my life. Might be a while before I get everything back but I am patient and hardworking so I know I can do it!!
And yes I have said it "proudly" here before... I do see a counsler to help talk all of this through with. I started going to their office about a month a month after his attempted suicide. It has really helped to know how I am feeling is "normal" and that it is ok to put a stop to all of this drama.
I am also learning that my lawyer is just about the best around(already knew that just seeing it now firsthand). He has finally hired his lawyer and now they are talking. I feel better knowing this can move forward and the sooner its over the better.
I have ventured out a bit this past weekend and spoken to some local people. I have been a bit surprised by the support I am getting from the people I was most worried about. The general comments seem to be "I don't know how you did it this long" & "we all know what he is like - you take what he says with an ounce of salt because only part is ever true". It hurt to know others thought that so long before I finally had enough.
Everyone keeps telling me there is a light at the end of this long hard tunnel and I hope they are right. I know after this is all done I will be able to go on and build what I want in my life. Might be a while before I get everything back but I am patient and hardworking so I know I can do it!!
And yes I have said it "proudly" here before... I do see a counsler to help talk all of this through with. I started going to their office about a month a month after his attempted suicide. It has really helped to know how I am feeling is "normal" and that it is ok to put a stop to all of this drama.