I am being very selective in what I respond to.
The Target thread was not deleted in "fear" of Tazznum1. or that she would read it. I have made unpopular decisions in the long ago past...and usually PMed her to let her know what I did and why. But neither of us can PM each other now. So, I have to email her. She has never not stood behind my decision.
I was preparing my account for deletion. Deleting signature, avatar, all my friends, PMs (that no, I can't read here), etc...I deleted all posts that had my daughter's name. I wanted to make me not exist here...so I began to delete all my posts..but at 20 a page and only doing 16 (at a time as I was keeping the very last 4 posts)...I realized that 50,000+ posts was going to take a week. So, I stopped doing that.
I felt like someone died while deleting myself here....and felt that thread is what ruined everything.
I had Joy texting me that that thread had people blaming her for my leaving...I had Joy texting me that FW people were talking about the thread and she was pissed.
I wanted to delete my own posts only....not because I worry about Lex, I have no problem with anything I do to own to her....but because some misunderstood posts cost me something that I loved so much (CW). But even when I delete just myself I get criticized.
so through tears, I deleted the entire thread.
I keep being told not to respond to this...but lies I can't leave posted about me.
There was no conspiracy...no "hide from Tazz" (I didn't realize she was here, I was in my own account most of the time)...BEFORE that thread was deleted the NIGHT before, I emailed Tazz to unmod me. I didn't run in and delete anything that night. I emailed her to remove my account and she wasn't here in minutes.
The rest of the conspiracy theory and hoopla is just that. I have almost always answered for my actions...when I could without breaking someone's confidence. I am no different now.