Nanny thank you.
Later tonight DS was a decent person............makes me feel even worse.
He was my first born, light of my life.................sigh..............
If someone would have told me I might feel like this of my sweet baby boy, I would've thought they were crazy!
Ok starting tomorrow, I am recommitting myself................sigh...........I don't really know what that means, but I will address the issues differently and see what happens.
I should add that ds is much more disrespectful to dad than mom. The difference I think is that I don't yell much, I listen to him even if it's **** coming out and respond thoughtfully and I always hug him even when mad and tell him how much I love him and that he will always be my baby. He feels guilt when he gives me ****, I can see it on his face and I think it's because we are close and he knows I just want whats best for him. Oh and yes, he is my first born and light of my life as well...still is, just different.